Everyday that goes by when I don't hear from him, I feel like I'm holding my breath. Then he calls after days of suffocating, and I can breathe again, even if just for a few hours. But the next day, it starts all over again...
Six days and counting with this deployment-imposed asthma.
So today, I *finally* got back into the scrapbook groove. I'm in week four of this deployment, and I seriously feel like every new day is harder than the first. Sigh. I haven't scrapbooked in a really long time, so I'm really happy I finally got back into it today, thanks to my cousin Amanda! I just needed a little kick in the butt to get started on Joshua's album... which I technically started 2 years ago when we met, but haven't done much with since. I need to catch up before he gets home!
Here is what I accomplished today:
My honey just around 2 years ago, I believe...
And this is the album cover and first page that I started when we first met:
Too bad this didn't say "corps" instead of "core," huh?
This is my favorite picture of him. Ever! ♥
Obviously, I blurred out Joshua's name tape. So that's that! I'm going to try to dedicate Sundays to scrapbooking. I have all of high school scrapbooked, part of sophomore year of college, part of when I moved out to Cleveland, and now part of Joshua's album. I definitely have my work cut out for me! That's what, 7 years to catch up on? Damn, I'm getting old.
Felice came to visit this weekend, fun fun! Her boyfriend, Christian, is in Afghanistan with Joshua right now. We set the two of them up last summer and they've been lovebirds ever since. ;) Felice and I have been friends for 15 years! We met when we were 10 years old. You know how they say, every deployment you have a girlfriend that becomes your military "spouse"? That's Felice. She's my wifey... we had a nice weekend not doing much of anything, and tomorrow she's back to Jersey for nursing school and I'm back to the grind of another work week. Designing my life away.
This blog is fun! Comment if you stop by, pretty please! Have a great Monday, everyone...
Happy was I this morning around 1:30am to receive a call from my beloved; he sounded better than the last time we spoke, but I can tell that something is wrong. He couldn't tell me and can't write about it to me, but I think the constant patrols and combat he's been in are wearing on him. Either that, or it's just his asshole platoon sergeant, whose sole MOS is to make Joshua's life a living hell. My poor sweetheart. Either way, it was incredible to hear his voice... the call was dropped once but he was able to call again, and I did not want to let him go.
Then, after work this evening, I had my third letter waiting for me in my mailbox. We picked up the cutest USMC stationary before he left, and I self-addressed half of the envelopes in the set for him to send to me. At least this way, I know exactly what I'm looking for in the mail. I miss him.
So even though I have not yet given my space a spring cleaning or taken out my spring clothes and shoes, I did break out the Bare Escentuals yesterday morning. I've used BE for years, but this past winter I switched to Tarte makeup. Still natural/semi-organic, but liquid based instead of powder. It was a nice switch, but I really missed my BE!
I guess it's time to warn my dear blog readers of my shopping addiction. I'm really trying to get it under control, and I don't shop as much as I used to, especially now that I have the wedding to save for (yay!), but I did pick up a couple of things at the mall tonight before I met my cousin to see a movie. I...needed...a pick-me-up? (When will I stop using this as an excuse?!)
I also have a severe makeup addiction, which is also quite funny because Joshua hates when I wear makeup. He calls it "face paint." "Why are you putting that face paint on? Take it off!"
I added bareMinerals Multi-Tasking concealer in Summer Bisque and a new brush to my BE collection:
And then Too Faced eyeshadow in Blonde Ambition (...what can I say? I'm partial to blondes):
And I need to just note that under the lid on the Too Faced box, it says "Forget Wall St., invest in makeup!" Haha. It's a pretty shimmery gold color.
In between my shopping adventures, I saw Remember Me with my cousin, Amanda. All I can really say is... wow. I did not see this movie panning out the way it did. Just... wow. I'm not one to spoil movies, so... I do recommend it. But mainly because I want to talk to someone about it! Ahh! Wow. Oh, and I will say that although I was not a fan of Robert Pattinson in Twilight, he was fantastic in this movie. Really, I was so impressed! I think this role suited him much better. Then again... the only person I could imagine playing Edward is my Marine. C'mon... strong, sexy, deadly? Fits my man's description. ;)
I also love the actress, Emilie DeRaven. She was in my fave TV series, Roswell, forever back.
The movie takes place in New York City, and it reminded me of the summer I lived there during college. I scored an awesome internship at a design agency in NYC between my junior and senior year... I worked on accounts like American Express, Nick Jr. Magazine, Travel & Leisure... it was incredible. But you know what? I hated the city. My city friends didn't understand it. Every weekend I escaped home to the mountains and the lake. Watching Remember Me made me wish I had fallen in love with New York like so many do, for all its imperfections... New York is loud. It truly never sleeps. It's dirty. It smells. But it is really beautiful, and I'm thankful for the experiences I had living there. At least I do appreciate it, even though I could never live there full-time.
After the movie, I stopped at Barnes & Noble (another dangerous place for me) and picked up the following:
A wedding magazine and a craft business book, of course. Setting up for the future! These things are an investment! Right...?
I got notification that Joshua's boots shipped today... yay! I already received the foot care kit I ordered at the same time. Silly Army Navy store... they should have shipped them together to save shipping. Oh well.
Tomorrow is a new day! I'm slowly coming out of this week's mega-depression. Thank goodness.
I don't know what it is this week, I'm just so... miserable. I miss my love, and it sucks. I was doing so damn well the first 2 weeks, and this 3rd week? Hell. Total hell. I did get a two minute phone call this afternoon at work... I was in a bakery meeting coming up with names for a new line of cakes and cupcakes for our stores, and that's when he called. Of course I ran out and talked for him for the better part of two minutes, before the satellite phone he was calling from died. Sigh. He sounded the same way I feel, which also just... sucks.
So this one blog that I love to read (enJOY it. best blog ever!) does what she calls "Wedding Wednesdays." In honor of my upcoming wedding (and reminder from The Knot that as of last Thursday, it is only 15 months away), I've decided to follow her tradition. This way, every Wednesday I'll be able to share what I have going so far and make sure I stay on top of my bridal duties. Ha.
Where to begin?
How about our proposal story, for those of you who have not heard it yet? Or wait, maybe the story of how we met? I don't know. Let's do both.
♥ How We Met♥ After I graduated college in New York, I moved to Cleveland, Ohio in the fall of 2007 to work as a graphic designer for American Greetings, the card company. The position was full-time, but it was only a temp job with the promise of turning permanent. I gave myself a six-month goal to move to a full-time position, after which I planned to pursue other options.
The position never became full-time, so after six months I interviewed and accepted a job back home in New York, where I am now. A month before I left Cleveland, on January 4th, 2008, I met Joshua.
Joshua was home on leave for the holidays that winter. The day before he left to return to Camp Lejeune, his dad and step-mom brought him into American Greetings (they both also worked there at the time!) to bring him around to meet their friends and co-workers. Prior to this, they had suggested that he and I meet, but the timing never worked out because while he was on leave, I was home in NY spending the holiday with my family.
So they brought Joshua over to my area where all the girls were going crazy over him, falling all over themselves to get him to notice them. They introduced Joshua to everyone, and he and I just just made eye contact and exchanged smiles, but I was way too shy to say anything else! After Joshua and his parents left, there was a quick email exchange between his step-mom and I the following week, and Joshua called me the night she gave him my phone number. After that, we were inseparable!
Our first weekend together in St. Augustine, Florida
I truly believe that everything happens for a reason, and I think that meeting Joshua was the reason I moved to Cleveland for six months. I mean, really. I left behind everything I knew in New York, all my family and friends, moved to a big city for a new job that wasn't even permanent, and just when I was about to move home, I met him! Life is so insane.
♥ The Proposal♥
4th of July Weekend of 2009, we planned a trip with our two best friends to camp out in Virginia Beach, VA. Christian and Joshua met at Camp Lejeune and are in the same squad, and Felice and I met in the 5th grade in New Jersey, where we went to high school.
Our festive picnic table at the campsite the night Joshua proposed
On Friday night (July 3rd, 2009), all four of us arrived at the campsite from opposite directions. Christian and Felice went for a walk on the beach just the two of them, and Joshua and I stayed back at the campsite with the fire. I was setting up the picnic table and he was chopping up firewood, and all of the sudden, he (pretended to) cut his hand open with his k-bar! I freaked out and started running around looking for something to clean his hand with (because of course of really thought that he had cut his hand!), and he kept saying, "Babe, just come look at it, I think it's pretty deep!" and I said "No, no, I need to get towels or a first aid kit or something! Do we need to go to the hospital?!" He finally called for me to just look at it to see how bad it was, so I ran over to him and he opened his hand and put a ring on my finger. ♥ It was there that he asked me to marry him! It was perfect... just the two of us by the campfire, and also so typical of us; him teasing me and me running around like a crazy person... He said he wanted to do it in a way that would completely surprise me so I wouldn't expect anything. Check! It was a fantastic weekend.
So I think that will be all for this Wedding Wednesday. Next week, I'll talk about the plans we've made so far and what we've already accomplished in the wedding planning process! Stay tuned.
Okay! I think I got the design the way I'd like it for now.
I really, really, really miss Joshua. I've been going>going>going nonstop since he left, but I think it all caught up with me yesterday and today. I've just been exhausted, and to be honest... completely miserable.
On the bright side, I did receive my first two letters from Joshua yesterday. He was also able to call me last Friday and Saturday. He sounded wonderful on the phone. He asked me to send him new boots, and after a couple hours of research and coupon hunting online, I got him these:
(Honey, I hope they're what you want.) There were only a million different boots to choose from! Not really. But definitely over 25. I wish he had internet access or phone access so I could show/ask him, but I've already ordered them and they're en route my house. I wish they would've sent to an FPO address, but that wasn't an option.
In other bright news, I've sent out three care packages so far...
An Easter care package:
A home-baked care package:
And an "essentials" care package:
Last weekend, I drove down to Maryland to visit Genna, whose fiancé is in Joshua's unit and over in Afghanistan with him right now. They're in different companies, thus also different places, but it was so nice to spend the weekend with her. We're both in the same situation right now, planning our weddings without our men here, and neither of us are in the mood to go out drinking or to parties. Instead, we did just what we wanted to... stayed in for a girls night baking cookies and cakes for the boys.
We made dozens of cookies to split between Joshua and Codey, and had a success at making our first ever "cakes in a jar!" It was easy and lots of fun. Here are some photos our our success:
So all in all, a good weekend but a not so great week so far. Maybe I'll get a call soon, maybe I'll get out of this mood, or maybe the shitty weather will clear up and I'll start feeling better because of that. Sigh. Either way, I'm glad I started this blog.
Sooo as a graphic designer, the design of this blog is driving me crazy, and I just have to note (for any of my designer friends... or friends that know me better) that it's **Under Construction!!!** Phew, there... I feel better now. Hopefully this weekend I'll have the time to play with a header, fonts, etc... but for now, it's off to work for me! Another fun day in the land of food packaging design...
Well, I suppose that now is as good a time as any to start a blog. Hello, and welcome to my world!
This will be a blog of all the things I love: Joshua, scrapbooking, shopping, music, books, family fun, design, my amazing girlfriends, movies, traveling, and wedding plans!
So to begin with a little background... My name is Dani and I'm 24 years old. I'm a graphic designer and I live in Upstate New York. The love of my life, Joshua, is in the USMC infantry and was recently deployed to Afghanistan. He's stationed in North Carolina and we met in Cleveland, Ohio. Needless to say, we get around! We've been through one deployment together while he was in Iraq, and we travel up and down the east coast to see each other when he's here in the States.
Joshua proposed to me July 3rd, 2009, while we were camping at Virginia Beach. We're planning a military wedding for June 18th, 2011 and I'm having lots of fun getting ideas to share with him and my bridesmaids once we can all get together!
My biggest hobby is scrapbooking, but I've really been slacking lately. I generally scrapbook chronologically, and I'm almost 7 years behind! One of my goals this year is to get back into it and share my layouts here for inspiration. Wish me luck!
I'm thinking that this blog will be a little bit of everything I love... Hard Corps Love! Don't be shy either, remember to let me know you're reading! ♥